It Ain’t Going Anywhere

You know which path,

You know what Y means,

Go it boldly or don’t go,

Eyes open, head high,

Listening, yes distracted, by the soundtrack-the one that plays in your head,

If you’d Knelt down and whispered in your ear,

yes, you’re own ear,

And once again a little louder,

-you’d have said, “you know better”

Standing next to the Speaker, wearing that hat, having that drink,

A sweaty mosh pit reminded you…..

“You are alive.”

I tell him “Son, ear plugs are cool,”

but don’t stand by the speakers, never;

Knowing his brain cannot jump forward in time.

Mesmerized by the drums, pulsing to a whining guitar,

Always Feeling so much more than the auditory nerves can soak up…..

Angry vocals, raw but playful,

Coming together like sugar and cream;

Nothing store bought could compare…….

honesty is meeting a stranger’s gaze,

Courage is not staving off the awkward moment

but relishing it’s teachings.

Beauty is scraping your broken self from the rubber of your shoe,

Feeling defeated but smarter.

Why did I once wince at the imperfections?

…the humiliation, unrelenting palpitations of hurt,

Handcuffs, eyes swollen from tears, defeat.

Embrace it like you did when you saw your first drag queen,

It’s heart is beating, it is truth and it ain’t going anywhere without you.

If Today Were a Song

     If Today Were a Song

Woke up ten past ten…..exact time I was born  

Day punctured my skin,

Be it a rose, I’ve found the thorn

Lazy lids are lifted, day disguised as a gift

Sun beckons my shadow

Back to sleep, I start to drift

( Chorus)

If I give into slumber, the earth may swallow me  

If I give into slumber I might feel my mind is free  

 

I awaken naked, cold and alone

Heavy feet find the floor

Breathe deep, filled and ready,

If feel this day may warm the bone

 

I’ll always question the tune of hope

Today’s glint of life’s musical score

When I shake my head to reason,

The pain of love is something more

(Chorus)

If I give into slumber, the earth may swallow me  

If I give into slumber, I might feel my mind is free  

 

 

Somehow today is different

Than it was before

You must have known it’s you I’d miss

But in my dream you shut the door

(Chorus)

If I give into slumber, the earth may swallow me 

If I give into slumber, I might feel my mind is free 

 

Back to sleep, I nearly escape me

Escape today, and your last kiss

Still in your absence

I can’t argue, this day is a gift