I didn’t set out to be a “problem child,”
Terrified by the word “Goodbye,”
Nor did I know why I felt alone
In a room filled with people.
I didn’t marvel at the creatures at the zoo
Like children do,
I wasn’t clamoring for my mommy’s hand,
Or reaching through a swarm of liquid bubbles
Marveling at how wondrous life could be,
In a world I barely knew
Early on, I felt as if I knew,
And as I grew, the world I barely knew
Came at me like galloping horses,
Rearing back, wild and temperamental.
Life seemed to whisper it’s secrets to me
I chose not to inhale deeply; filling my lungs with more
I learned to hold my breath,
Perhaps so my human presence would go undetected.
Every inkling, every life moment pressed at me;
Ideas bursting like sunflowers
Hanging their heavy heads
Knowing deep in my belly….if indeed I blossomed
I would be the only one
To ever pick me.